* I suspect said doctor is an army reserve medical officer for the following reasons: He took over my ‘care’ in September 2014, on my second visit to the practice regarding my escalating stress. He appeared familiar with military service and suggested I had a ‘moral injury’ from my Afghan tour in 2012. At the end of that first appointment he randomly asked me what school I went to – it turned out he went to the same school, Lancaster Royal Grammar, a couple of years below me. I asked if he knew another Old Lancastrian, my commanding officer at 207 Field Hospital who was also a NHS doctor and an SAS reserves medical officer. My doctor appeared surprised I knew that but did confirm he knew the colonel. In 2010 I was fulltime support staff for 207 Field Hospital before their operational deployment to Afghanistan and saw their mobilization schedule intimately – driving them to medical courses and exercises. I noticed a similar pattern of absence by my doctor from the practice prior to one of his colleagues randomly walking into a consultation and telling me my doctor had/ was going to spent two weeks in America. That’d be typical of a final exercise before deployment, especially for Special Forces and it did coincide with a very specific joint US/UK Special Forces exercise in America. My doctor responded to that very odd interruption by (unconvincingly) telling me he was just taking his children to Disneyland. When I next called to make an appointment I was told he was on six months sick leave which was oddly specific. Special Forces reserve deployments are typically four months plus two months post operational tour leave. He referred me to a full 'mental health' assessment in our first consultation, and has since referred me to perhaps a dozen more different 'mental health assessors'. That's meant I've had to explain my aggravations to a dozen strangers with very little result. It's been torturous and I have been repeatedly forced to attend such assessments without explanation or any result / report back.
Work-in-Progress
My stress began in earnest during my 2012 military service in Camp Bastion, Afghanistan when I realised I could have saved two men’s lives, US Marine allies killed-in-action by Taliban attackers during their airfield raid of 14/15 September. It was that personal guilt and professional shame that initiated my need to become a whistleblower and report my and others failures to defend the base. With only two weeks in-theatre left my focus was on one thing – surviving to ensure I could tell my story. I shamefully refused an invitation to do a sixth top-cover duty when asked for by the recovery mechanic drivers who had seen my tactics work on previous patrols. I’ve been at war ever since, only now it’s against the corrupt fuckers who stole our treasure and wasted so much blood.
I tried to do things by the book, first reporting it at my home unit 207 Field Hospital Manchester, but they said 'Best not to say anything'. I left the army in April 2013 and waited six months (a period you’re still subject to military law I think) before reporting my concerns in October / November 2013. I met with the regional commander (42 North West) Brigadier Nick Fitzgerald at Preston Barracks, corresponded with parliament’s Defence Committee via my MP Graham Brady, and I corresponded with the Ministers for Veterans who replied on behalf of the Minister of Defence. Everyone of them thanked me for my service but not one of them did a fucking thing about the matters I was trying to report.
The repercussions I’ve endured since – career sabotaged, mental and physical torture, and grave abuses by police, Intel agencies, parliamentary and governmental of their duties – are all ongoing. And so I’ve decided to share two letters (identities redacted) from my NHS records to shine a public light on the battles I’m fighting behind the scenes, and highlight the dangers and challenges I’m facing.